PAUL FRANK.

5 August 2006

"we don't live in a world of reality, we live in a world of perceptions" Gerald J Simmons.

sometimes people think they know so much about everything.. but in reality that is only their own narrow-minded perception of things.
you only see what you see.. but there is so much more you haven't seen. the reality world.. the real people behind that "personality".

only last week did i realise that your personality is totally different from your character.
your personality is how you interact daily on a social basis to the world.
your character is how you react to circumstances you face in life.

my sister used to complain that i used the word "nice" to describe too many people and that i left the word with no value at all. at time point of time i would stubbornly insist "but she is really very nice!" but at times.. i would have to come back to her and tell her i discovered otherwise. now i realised something.. when i said that someone was nice i would be simply judging the fact on how my friend treats me. (the personality)
and everyone's nice to their friends.
true niceness is how you treat your enemies or people you dislike.. that is true character.

i have to learn to be less self-centered, selfish and sensitive to my own feelings when i am upset because unknowingly i hurt people. i am really sorrie. i can't believe how quick-tempered i am.. one moment im yelling the next moment i regretted. It was pride that made me walk on.

i dugged everything out and said it already. there is nothing deeper in me i haven't said at all. i was so scared when i said everything.. it was like showing myself, my weakness my everything beneath what they usually see.

i don't expect anything to change because what can i change? except myself.
i don't know how i am going to do that, but i am. because God will help me. :) even though it seems difficult but i will just take it.................

i won't care about people's opinions and what people think i will just trust in God, follow his ways and love.

cher =) 8:51 AM
la di da..

9 July 2006

i bought a new notebook for my attachment. its brown with a pretty yellow sun on it.. hees. cheers me up completely! so excited for attachment tmr! wahaha! i can use my cute new notebook.. opf. "yes, yes? asthma oh ok.." scribbles off... MY gosh!! i will look so cool!
wahaha! can't wait! hehe.
my da jie's graduating on tuesdae! finally! wheee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im excited! but i must think of smthing nice to wear to take lotsa of photos with.. -groans- nevermind.. i will make er jie think for me. anyway i hope i will get to eat nice food! yay!! da jie's treating us! :D
sorrie.. im just babbling on.
lalala.. im off to finish up my new bk! :) gd nite everyone!

cher =) 8:43 PM
la di da..

8 July 2006

God knows what's in your heart

and what you need before you ask.

Even when you

don't know for sure, God knows,

because He knows you.

He knows the outcome

of every situation,

and He's guiding you

even when you might feel

that you have lost your way.

He knows how much you can bear,

and He will give you strength

and fill you with His grace

and blessings

as He walks with you

every step of the way.

He is surrounding you

with his love

and holding you gently

in the palm

of His hand.

something found on a card a dear friend gave me once when I was upset.. you don't know what magic that card made in my heart.. thank you. :) thank you for being my angel.

cher =) 6:43 PM
la di da..

7 July 2006

i should quit grinning to myself all over the place.
makes me feel like i'm an idiot. d:
had a realli fruitful week.. -beams-

kids are such sweet people.. they can be naughty n cheeky but they are still so beautiful.
their innocence and realness make them so much easier to understand than adults.

don't hurt their precious little souls. just simply love them.

I'm tired, drained but happy! Its so much less stressful looking after children n you get to play with them too.. haha.

Just met up with emilyn and huiyan.. my precious dears. :) yepps! we will grow together in God's love everydae. let's jiayou together!!!
not everyone is easy to love.. but i will do it! stop complaining and judging cher!

-[day 7]-

cher =) 11:50 PM
la di da..

26 June 2006

camp's over!! whee!!!
there were hiccups along e way.. nauseating and not being able to eat.
but altogether it was great!! yay!!!
i learned so much so much.. oh ya. i played this car thing called the "luge". heard before? at sentosa. its FUN!! plus cos we went in a big grp it was onli 5 dollars! yepps.
i wanna go again... hehe.

all i learnt can be summed in this pretty song..

If We Hold On Together

Don't lose your way with each passing day. You've come so far, don't throw it away.
Live believing, dreams are for weaving, Wonders are waiting to start.
Live your story, Faith hope and glory. Hold to the truth in your heart.

If we hold on together I know our dreams will never die.
Dreams see us through to forever. Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bend. Seek out a star, hold on till the end
Valley, mountain, there is a fountain, Washes our tears all away
Worlds are swaying, someone is praying. Please let them come home to stay

If we hold on together I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever Where clouds roll by, for you and I

When we are out there in the dark We'll dream about the sunIn the dark, we'll feel the light Warm our hearts … Everyone

If we hold on together I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by, for you and I

cher =) 9:31 AM
la di da..

22 July 2006

my stomach hurts like crazy.. feels like gastric. but i vomitted everything i ate today. sighs.
i feel like i need something to fill my stomach but i don't want to vomit again.

there you go.. again.

it just happened again. 11.21pm.
somehow i keep thinking.. how come i never face that problem of fulfilling my promises.
even if i don't feel well i will just go ahead........

but i realised something.. you had a good reason this time.

so...
i should stop crying over dumb stuff .

what do you mean by i'm not being mature and independent by asking you to come home?
you should be coming home no matter what.. its your house.

i don't deny that your presence cheers me up and sometimes i feel needy for you. i miss old days where everyone is at home..

though i get freaked out about scoldings all the time but at least i knew you cared.

especially when you would call back everyday from the office to ask about us.

I know now we don't need that. but is it so hard to ask of you to be home more often then once a week? sighs.

i miss gwenY too..

how come the people closest to me just like to disappear altogether at the same time? =S

i think i should go and pray now and i will feel better. =)

cher =) 8:08 AM
la di da..

21 June 2006

i don't know whether i did anything wrong.
but it feels as though i did.
......
i don't dare to ask anything.
because i know she won't say a thing until she is ready.
just doing everything as usual.
i hope everything is fine with her.
don't store up everything in your heart..
its very burdening for you.
when you want to rant your feelings out just call me ok?
i promise to be there for you no matter what.
even if you want to scold me or anything i will just be there to be scolded.
i really don't know what to do..
all i know is just to pray that everything will be fine.
i think this is a huge possibility.. im just oversenstive.
but something just seems not right.

cher =) 7:01 AM
la di da..